| jaw dropping |
[29 Aug 2008|10:22pm] |
So beautiful it makes me want to swear. I swear...
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| Here's a long one... |
[26 Aug 2008|05:19pm] |
Hullo everyboddyy,
So it's really hot out right now, the afternoon is scorching and I love it.
They say it's probably going to last only for about 2 weeks or so. It feels like the days pass really quickly but when I think about it, it's only tuesday so not fast enough!
Anyway, I know some of you are curious about what my place looks like so I ran out and took some quick photos and here they are!
( I live on Pond St, as most of you will know... )
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| Back! |
[23 Aug 2008|05:52pm] |
hey guys, back up here again coz i'm too lazy to get a new one and add lj friends all over again!
don't have a lot of time to do a comprehensive post right now so i'll just put up whatever photos i have right now for you and continue when i have more time (:
everything's good so far, don't really like NY very much. it's everything you see on tv and more, heh.
be back soon okay!
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| guess this is it |
[03 Feb 2008|12:35am] |
i don't know if you or anyone else ever comes here anymore, but it doesn't matter.
in one short word, it was all a big huge misunderstanding that has not been cleared up even till this day.
it's funny that you can say we need to look past ourselves but yet not do the same yourself.
it's funny you say a lot of things about other people but not do for yourself.
i am no longer angry with you, no longer spiteful or hurt.
i'm just weary with the outcome of the years behind us now.
if i were to say anything about her or that fateful day, it was that it wasn't anybody's fault.
it was simply a misunderstanding that was the catalyst that unleashed a snowball of problems that you loved to pretend didn't happen.
i always like to thrash out things, i love it so much that you used to get annoyed and heck, you're not the only one.
but i like it for a reason.
it's so that things don't end up the way it did between us.
i won't speak for anyone else but me when i say,
the reason why things are the way they are now?
it's not pride.
in fact pride is so far away from the truth.
when it comes to friends and the people i love,
i have long practiced the art of throwing away pride for the sake of reconciliation or forgiveness.
the real reason is because time and time again,
we would argue, i would want to address the main problem,
but somehow the solution was always to pretend like it didn't happen.
it's so simple to me, but you just can't seem to see it.
if you don't change anything, then nothing will change.
duh, right?
i thought so at least.
you don't want another round of frustration, hurt and anger?
change then.
i mean no ones asking you to compromise yourself or change for the worse.
change for the better.
it's not always someone else's fault.
and hell, i always say, if there's something about me that you hate,
tell me and i'll see what i can do about it.
so you can't fault me for pride or whatever.
i'm all up for reconciliation y'know?
it's just that no one knows that you wanted to since you asked us all to fuck off on your blog.
not to mention returned all our stuff and asked for your stuff back,
asked not to be apart of the business any longer.
and then later question why we never made the first move to mend bridges.
talk about mixed signals.
it was a serious wtf moment for us.
i know you're gonna think that oh look there she goes pointing her finger at me again.
but did you ever think that you needed to do some changing for the hurt anger and frustration to go away?
i do, everyday.
i'm so willing to plunge back into us again, but did you ever consider for a moment that the way you behave hurts me?
i know i hurt you at the end,
but that was after you hurt me time and time again.
you can only stick your hand in the fire for so long.
and don't you go taking credit for the effort put in for the last few years.
you're real quick to discount all of mine and make it seem like i didn't do shit for you.
there were so many instances in the past i gritted my teeth and ploughed on for our friendship to hold on.
i never wanted to be the reason you lose faith in others,
much less in God.
it's not that i don't or never cared for you.
you cannot deny, no one around you can deny that you have this unrelenting stubborness.
it was precisely that that pushed us all away.
the reason why i can let go is because i gave up all hope of getting you to listen to me.
it was practically impossible.
and it had gotten to a point that anything i did or said was taken with offence.
how do you maintain a friendship like that, will you tell me please?
because with you, i never had an answer.
if you read this, and there is at all any room, no matter how small for a chance that you might even be willing to accept any of this, then i'll be more than happy mend the bridges.
because i really didn't type all of this out to get back at you or to feed my ego or to justify anything.
this is truly how it was for me.
if not, then well i rest my case and maybe we should just let it be.
but you'll always hold a place in my life, that you should know.
i'm not going to blog here anymore.
this ends a chapter of my life and it's time to move on.
goodbye.
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| the pot that called the kettle black. |
[11 Nov 2007|01:01pm] |
from heikal, by heikal, mostly.
WE LOVE PHOTOJOURN! (:
Life's pretty good!
With the exception of fizah, everyone seems to be a whole lot busier than me.
But fizah is my consolation!
I somehow can't wait for school to be over even though we just began.
It'll be quite sad for everyone to go their own way though.
Another chapter of our lives that is coming to a close.
I don't think any of us expected it to be so quick.
And as far as I see, everyone's still in shock that we're year 3!
Just a little more than 3 months and we'll be grad students.
Amazing!
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[04 Nov 2007|11:22am] |
Certainly been a long time since I've updated!
I have no picture of him,
but here is a test shot out of the test roll that sebastian took.
my new baby!
sebastian.
not the one in the picture although he is melt your heart material!
ummm...
there's really nothing much to say!
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| so totally looking forward to this. |
[21 Sep 2007|12:10am] |
original combi:
print
photojourn
radio pro
present combi:
print
docpro
advert
totally, completely, extremely, 100%, absolutely, all-consumingly, SIBEI depressed.
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| this is home, surely! |
[17 Sep 2007|12:42pm] |
ergh, such patriotism.
(can you guess there are a lot of girls in this home?
and no it is not my home...)
but home is where I will be for the holidays it appears.
four more days and we will know our electives posting ):
I can only cross my fingers and hope they will rearrange the timetable slightly.
I'd be really happy if I get print, photo and radio pro as my combi.
As for now,
I will passively job hunt,
think about the low f&b pay discontentedly,
lie in bed,
watch little miss sunshine,
eat pringles and drink ribena.
Oh, and dream about all the things I need/want/aspire to do with absolutely no money at all.
Meh.
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| welcome back to reality |
[12 Sep 2007|08:53am] |
I knew it was too good to be true.
When you go away for a holiday,
you wish you could stay away forever.
Escapism they call it.
If only we didn't have to face our problems right?
Well we're back in our shit again,
and with respect to me,
I forsee it will only get worse.
For a small of period time the tables were turned,
and it made me secretly happy.
I don't see that the tables will stay upside down now that we're back.
Or was it the right side up?
For now I just gotta brace myself,
wait it out and hope for the best.
There's something you're not telling me,
I wish you'd be honest and just say it.
It's going to be hell isn't it?
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[04 Sep 2007|10:23am] |
ooh, i've been 19 for a month already.
before we know it, we'll be married (hopefully, hah!).
then chasing kids around,
then grey and rickety.
i think i've reached this low on life.
it's not like i'm depressed or anything,
just that a lot of things aren't really going right that's all.
i wonder if after i graduate things could get worse, hahah.
the pessimist in me says oh definitely, you ain't seen nothing yet.
oh well.
back to school in a month,
cheers guys!
if it's give and give with you,
why didn't i recieve anything except material stuff?
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| stupid radio |
[03 Sep 2007|11:14pm] |
I look in your eyes and I can see
You've loved so dangerously
You're not trusting your heart to anyone
You tell me you're gonna play it smart
We're through before we start
But I believe that we've only just begun
When it's this good, there's no saying no
I want you so, I'm ready to go
Through the fire
To the limit, to the wall
For a chance to be with you
I'd gladly risk it all
Through the fire
Through whatever, come what may
For a chance at loving you
I'd take it all the way
Right down to the wire
Even through the fire
I know you're afraid of what you feel
You still need time to heal
And I can help if you'll only let me try
You touch me and something in me knew
What I could have with you
Well I'm not ready to kiss that dream goodbye
When it's this sweet, there's no saying no
I need you so, I'm ready to go
Through the test of time
Through the fire, to the limit
Through the fire, through whatever
Through the fire, to the limit
Through the fire, through whatever
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| ah the radio, so timely. |
[03 Sep 2007|12:16am] |
if you're lost you can look and you will find me,
time after time.
and then...
this shit is bananas,
b-a-n-a-n-a-s!
this shit is bananas,
b-a-n-a-n-a-s!
how true.
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| fizzi says |
[01 Sep 2007|06:19pm] |
Fizzi says:
sex shud be accompanied by this face o_0
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| back from bangkok. |
[01 Sep 2007|05:10pm] |
ah, was quite a sian trip.
bangkok is such a boring place,
or at least we didn't do much other than shop.
didn't take alex with me so i used my phone to take some photos.
not much to look at really, not much to say either.
( here. )
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| quote of the day! |
[20 Aug 2007|07:41pm] |
parappa the rapper! says:
which girls. whose PS2? WHAT CABLE ON KELONG?
ahahahahhahahahah.
such an incredulous tone, even online.
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| i'm so bored |
[18 Aug 2007|08:23pm] |
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i spent all day in bed today.
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| i've been having funny conversations lately... |
[15 Aug 2007|11:42am] |
parappa the rapper! says:
oh, what you do to me says:
?!
what the hell man
parappa the rapper! says:
oh thats supposed to be her
parappa the rapper! says:
and different ppl wanting to do that to her
oh, what you do to me says:
oh
oh, what you do to me says:
lol.
that's supposed to be a bunny strangling another bunny i think?
it shakes the bunny by the neck but it kind of looks like they're kissing.
anyway, i'm sure fizah knows who's being talked about here, hahah.
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| ham and eggs. |
[14 Aug 2007|06:58pm] |
you see, the chicken just puts the eggs on the plate.
but the pig,
the pig, he's committed.
so are you the pig or the chicken?
i love greys! (:
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| HAHAHAHAH. gotcha. |
[13 Aug 2007|11:30pm] |
lj's my new best friend said:
hear me mooooo
okay now your turn.
drew. i am cow. said:
i weigh twice as much as you
lj's my new best friend said:
yes you do drew
drew. i am cow. said:
HEY.
X)
(in case you're lost)
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